Kansas

Life is funny, I was talking to my former cube neighbor Tess about how our lives are changing and we are moving on with life doing this or that. Oftentimes people say (and i've said it before in my blog) "if i only knew then what i know now" and how crazy that we have already grown up so much in the past two or three months that things are happening we weren't really expecting to happen and we reflect that if we only knew then what we know now and basically we are just floating through life, like dust in the wind. so of course, i have a song to express the moment, of course it's not too original given the title, but appropriate nonetheless.

I close my eyes, only for a moment, and the moment's gone
All my dreams, pass before my eyes, a curiosity
Dust in the wind, all they are is dust in the wind.
Same old song, just a drop of water in an endless sea
All we do, crumbles to the ground, though we refuse to see

Dust in the wind, all we are is dust in the wind

[Now] Don't hang on, nothing lasts forever but the earth and sky
It slips away, and all your money won't another minute buy.

Dust in the wind, all we are is dust in the wind
Dust in the wind, everything is dust in the wind.

aimlessness

this post has no purpose other than to get a few things off my mind, aimlessness

i registered for a half marathon on friday, good thing my knees are killing me...glucosamine chondroitin, biofreeze and advil will be my new best friends now. regardless, i'm excited about running 13.1 miles!

i'm really really REALLY miserable at work. i try not to talk about work on this thing b/c of employer snooping, but i'm miserable. mostly b/c i hate wasting 1.5 hours of my day in my car. that's 7.5 hours a week i'm just driving. i won't even go there with how much i spend on gas. so i spend all that time and money driving to go sit in my freezing cold cube to do nothing. i pray and pray and pray for a new job. i'm torn btw. praying for "God's will" and just flat out asking specifically for what i want. but i believe we should be specific and dang it i am being specific and i'm still driving and hating work. HATE IT! and why does it seem that everyone around me is just as happy as they can be and i can't even find the desire to be happy anymore, not until i get a new job. i know this sounds ridiculous. but let's examine this. most days i wake up at 5:30 and go to bed around 10, that's 16.5 hours i am awake. if i start counting the time i leave for work until the time i get home 10.5 hours are spent related to my job each day so that's 52.5 hours a working week out of 82.5 a working week that i am in my job. that's a huge percentage. life is too short to be miserable that many hours each working week.

moving on. i really really love this weather. it's amazing. it's been so nice lately. our windows are open and sleeping with windows open makes for the best sleep. i run in this great neighborhood with great old houses and little kids that play outside and dogs bark at me and i can smell dinner being cooked and now the leaves crunch beneath each step. it's the most glorious time for me. i don't run with music anymore, i don't even know what i think about, i just clear my head. but i was thinking the other day how i wish i could go trick or treating and i'm a little more envious of children.

i'm so confused, if you have any idea what i should do with my life other than check facebook like it's my job please let me know.

office space

i've seen this movie multiple times, i enjoy this movie, it's hilarious, what makes it even more hilarious is i can totally relate to Peter save the boring office space (ours is at least not as bland)

here are some of my favorite quotes :

Peter Gibbons: You see Bob, it's not that I'm lazy, it's that I just don't care.
Bob Porter: Don't... don't care?
Peter Gibbons: It's a problem of motivation, all right? Now if I work my ass off and Initech ships a few extra units, I don't see another dime, so where's the motivation? And here's another thing, I have eight different bosses right now.
Bob Porter: Eight?
Peter Gibbons: Eight, Bob. So that means when I make a mistake, I have eight different people coming by to tell me about it. That's my only real motivation is not to be hassled, that, and the fear of losing my job. But you know, Bob, that will only make someone work just hard enough not to get fired.


Samir: No, not again. I... why does it say paper jam when there is no paper jam? I swear to God, one of these days, I just kick this piece of shit out the window.
Michael Bolton: You and me both, man. That thing is lucky I'm not armed.
Samir: Piece of shit.
(this is so perfect, except i hate my computer)


Joanna: So, where do you work, Peter?
Peter Gibbons: Initech.
Joanna: In... yeah, what do you do there?
Peter Gibbons: I sit in a cubicle and I update bank software for the 2000 switch.
Joanna: What's that?
Peter Gibbons: Well see, they wrote all this bank software, and, uh, to save space, they used two digits instead of four. So, like, 98 instead of 1998? Uh, so I go through these thousands of lines of code and, uh... it doesn't really matter. I uh, I don't like my job, and, uh, I don't think I'm gonna go anymore.
Joanna: You're just not gonna go?
Peter Gibbons: Yeah.
Joanna: Won't you get fired?
Peter Gibbons: I don't know, but I really don't like it, and, uh, I'm not gonna go.
Joanna: So you're gonna quit?
Peter Gibbons: Nuh-uh. Not really. Uh... I'm just gonna stop going.
Joanna: When did you decide all that?
Peter Gibbons: About an hour ago.
Joanna: An hour ago... so you're gonna get another job?
Peter Gibbons: I don't think I'd like another job.
Joanna: Well, what are you going to do about money and bills and...
Peter Gibbons: You know, I've never really liked paying bills. I don't think I'm gonna do that, either.



Bob Slydell: You see, what we're trying to do is get a feeling for how people spend their time at work so if you would, would you walk us through a typical day, for you?
Peter Gibbons: Yeah.
Bob Slydell: Great.
Peter Gibbons: Well, I generally come in at least fifteen minutes late, ah, I use the side door - that way Lumbergh can't see me, heh - after that I sorta space out for an hour.
Bob Porter: Da-uh? Space out?
Peter Gibbons: Yeah, I just stare at my desk, but it looks like I'm working. I do that for probably another hour after lunch too, I'd say in a given week I probably only do about fifteen minutes of real, actual, work.


Peter Gibbons: So I was sitting in my cubicle today, and I realized, ever since I started working, every single day of my life has been worse than the day before it. So that means that every single day that you see me, that's on the worst day of my life.
Dr. Swanson: What about today? Is today the worst day of your life?
Peter Gibbons: Yeah.
Dr. Swanson: Wow, that's messed up.


Bob Porter: Looks like you've been missing a lot of work lately.
Peter Gibbons: Well, I wouldn't exactly say I've been *missing* it, Bob.

This is SO my life!

Top 1 of the week

No point in making a list, only 1 thing worth noting here:

GEORGIA 18
S. CAROLINA 0

Nothing like watching Spurrier's boys screw it up time after time. And we had our 3rd string QB in! Granted, he's up and coming, quite possibly better than Joe T. and with a little practice with the offense could have an excellent starting season.

I wish I had a picture of Spurrier throwing his classic visor, but I couldn't find one from last night.

GOOOOOO DAWGS!

Well Rounded

i took a personality test to see if i'm a type A or B personality and like i've always known, i'm well rounded.

	Personality Type
Your score = 68

You seem to be in the middle between the Type A and Type B personality. In this case, the middle ground is good. Your attitude to life is more of the "smell the roses" kind and you know how and when to relax. Nonetheless, you realize that picking up a challenge and competing a little bit for your place in the sun can add some spice to your life. The equilibrium is important, so don't let your hostile, aggressive, and competitive alter ego take over too often. Generally, you are easy to be around, and people tend to feel relaxed and comfortable in your presence. Yours is a very healthy attitude towards life.

cool!

Kate's Top 10 - 9.04

10. after all of the weddings i've attended, been a bridesmaid in, i'm finally a maid of honor, it had to happen one day! yay krystie!

9. finding new job prospects

8. cheaper gas

7. bike rides - especially at 5:30 in the morning, just light enough to see until the sun rises in all of it's incredible glory.

6. signing up for a half-marathon - yep, november 18th, i'll be treking it down 13 miles of pavement with my asics btw. me and the pavement.

5. rainy days/thunderstorms

4. baked sweet potatoes

3. www.foundmagazine.com - check it daily for randomness, then i bet you'll slow down a little more often to find your own found objects.

2. text messages

1. long weekends

fish out of water

i don't feel like i fit in here. in georgia i had dozens of friends, i could call anyone i wanted at any time and find something to do, someone to hang out with. here, not so much. i feel like my personality and interests are so far from everyone else's that i don't really click with anyone. i mean i've met great people that i hang out with, but it's not the same. i wonder if it ever will be the same? probably not.

i think i should have gone home this weekend to see people, soon, i'll have to go back to georgia soon.

why am i still here? b/c clearly i haven't been happy the past 9 months.

If i knew then what i know now...

look at it go! classic

i just learned about sheep riding, sheep riding is basically training the little ones for bull riding. now the PBR is getting huge, lots of sponsorship $$ and way more publicity, huge on OLN. anway, i wouldn't want to be a bull rider. but a sheep rider, that would be fun!

so, knowing about sheep riding now, if i knew about sheep riding as a kid, i may have asked the parentals to let me ride sheep. i think it would have been fun.

now i'm too big.