Final Friday, Final Day!

patience: bearing pains or trials calmly or without complaint

i have a hard time with this one. in this technology age when i can get pretty much everything i want immediately, waiting is just too hard.

there are several things in my life i am waiting on, so close, yet so, so far away. i have a feeling this next stage in my life will be a period of growth in patience and trust. i hope i'm up for the challenge, i guess i'll have to be b/c my whole life is hanging in a suspension that is out of my reach, i can't control it.

The end of a matter is better than its beginning, and patience is better than pride. Ecclesiastes 7:8

**speaking of patience, my computer won't allow me to post a picture, so before i lose said patience i'm going to post this thing and be done with it.

Final Thursday...

me at age 3 or 4 i guess at my grandparent's house. my cousin found it and thought it would be fun to bring it to work to show everyone. then leo (bestest coworker friend who likes to make fun of me at every opportunity) thought it was most necessary to scan it, i look forward to seeing what he does to it. he also said i had an evil grin. and yes, those are pound puppies, i have 2 in my hand, you just can't see them b/c they are black! oh to be a kid again!

Final Wednesday...

I think this is in a previous post, but it fits and I love toothpaste for dinner it makes me laugh.

I have nothing profound to say, not that i often have profound things to say...i wish i did.

The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and I am helped. My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to him in song. Ps. 28:7

i am just so excited about my life...God is so good and i can't help but praise him even though i have no idea what is going to happen next...i love it!

Final Tuesday....

and i am bored.

what is up with this weather? it's nice and all, but not for december. it doesn't even feel like christmas is next week. i'm kind of ready to bundle up for once. a couple of weeks ago, with temperatures in the 30s and 40s was glorious. even the alps are having snow troubles.

bring on the cold! (and bring on friday too, i can't take this much longer)

Final Monday...

i'm fairly certain i had an outfit like that when i was 3 or 4, but this isn't me. that hair is fabulous though!

Maybe I'll document every single last day of my last week at work. I am super bored.

one of my favorite websites to waste time on: www.foundmagazine.com.

it will make you look at trash on the ground in a whole new way. since discovering this website, i have found some interesting things, such as a balled, slightly ripped ticket to a man for public drunkeness. i can't imagine he paid it since i found it. it was clear from the way it was wadded up that he wasn't too happy about it either. ha!

one thing i don't miss....

finals! no more panic attacks, sleepless nights, information overload, short-term memory loss. i don't miss any of it.

well, now that i think about it, i do miss study sessions such as these. these are some friends of mine still lucky (i say that loosely) enough to have finals (L to R: Aubry, best bear hugger EVER, Rebecca - who is often quoted on my wall, and gerry, who lives in a trailer and is married). they are in the SLC (Student Learning Center for you North Carolina people) and i'm sure there was much fun and little studying. i do miss that, but that's the only part.

'tis the season to have time on my hands!

Relevant

I resigned from my job last week, I'll be officially unemployed next Friday. Am I ok with this? Absolutely! Am I worried about not having a job? Sometimes. But I know I did the right thing. No question, without a doubt.

In my new found or I guess I should say, reinstatement of, boredom at work, I read Relevant Magazine every other day or so. Today I found this article about faith and quitting your job. Amazing!

Here is an excerpt:

" I still don’t know what is next, and am sometimes not exactly sure why I resigned and have to battle my doubt and my mind often but am learning to embrace the difficulties and uncertainties that I face because I can cling to the One who is. He just is. There is something about his “I am-ness” (Exodus 3:14) that gives me the courage to move, that makes my faith real, that wraps me up and holds my hand.

So I quit my job, I did not go back in the fall, and everything is not easy and perfect. Irresponsible? Some would say yes. Immeasurably more? Even though nothing is nailed down, yes. He is showing me the immeasurably more than I could ever ask or imagine in each new day and that is enough foresight. He is enough.

Faith moves. Be encouraged. Let Him move you."

I mean how awesome!? I'm so excited to see what is next, I'm not worried and I'm not even planning (which is huge for me, i love to plan, but God has been laughing in the face of the plans I've made the past few months, so I quit trying.)

Woo Hoo! I'm enjoying the ride called life!

If you want to donate to the "How Kate is going to pay for life now" fund, please leave me a message! :)

Seriously?

This beats any crazy driver story you will ever have. I was PASSED last night by someone driving down the middle of a two lane, that's right, crazy man passed me and the volvo in the right lane down the MIDDLE OF THE ROAD! Who does that? I called 911 on him, i hope he was pulled over, idiot.

one of my secrets

every sunday i read http://postsecret.blogspot.com/ and i find so many that could be mine. today this is one of "mine."

oh that cherry tree....

i cannot lie. and sometimes i lack tact and say what i think.

i'm going to get myself in trouble one day.

October 11, 1983

23

sometimes i feel like this

i'm not complaining here....

6th and green is a warm place in November
When the air is cold and the leaves blow on the ground
And I don't think that I can even remember
Why it was that i came to this town

Because I just want to be lonely tonight
Just me and my maker in this cold moonlight

This is me on the eve of an ending
To what I've known's been constant for a year
And I'm so scared of this pain that I'll be sending
Sometimes I just want to run away in fear

Because I just want to be lonely tonight
Just me and my maker in this cold moonlight

No, I haven't heard your voice in two weeks now
And anticipation's been wearing me thin
And I just can't help but wonderin' baby if somehow
We could tear these pages out and begin again

Because I just want to be lonely tonight
Just me and my maker in this cold moonlight
I just want to be lonely tonight
With no one around to see the sight
Of me lying here

'Cause this is the hardest thing I've ever done before
I said this is the hardest thing I've ever done before
And I don't want to be lonely
But I won't be lonely tonight
Because my maker's holding me

things i hate:

being an adult







i think....

Kansas

Life is funny, I was talking to my former cube neighbor Tess about how our lives are changing and we are moving on with life doing this or that. Oftentimes people say (and i've said it before in my blog) "if i only knew then what i know now" and how crazy that we have already grown up so much in the past two or three months that things are happening we weren't really expecting to happen and we reflect that if we only knew then what we know now and basically we are just floating through life, like dust in the wind. so of course, i have a song to express the moment, of course it's not too original given the title, but appropriate nonetheless.

I close my eyes, only for a moment, and the moment's gone
All my dreams, pass before my eyes, a curiosity
Dust in the wind, all they are is dust in the wind.
Same old song, just a drop of water in an endless sea
All we do, crumbles to the ground, though we refuse to see

Dust in the wind, all we are is dust in the wind

[Now] Don't hang on, nothing lasts forever but the earth and sky
It slips away, and all your money won't another minute buy.

Dust in the wind, all we are is dust in the wind
Dust in the wind, everything is dust in the wind.

aimlessness

this post has no purpose other than to get a few things off my mind, aimlessness

i registered for a half marathon on friday, good thing my knees are killing me...glucosamine chondroitin, biofreeze and advil will be my new best friends now. regardless, i'm excited about running 13.1 miles!

i'm really really REALLY miserable at work. i try not to talk about work on this thing b/c of employer snooping, but i'm miserable. mostly b/c i hate wasting 1.5 hours of my day in my car. that's 7.5 hours a week i'm just driving. i won't even go there with how much i spend on gas. so i spend all that time and money driving to go sit in my freezing cold cube to do nothing. i pray and pray and pray for a new job. i'm torn btw. praying for "God's will" and just flat out asking specifically for what i want. but i believe we should be specific and dang it i am being specific and i'm still driving and hating work. HATE IT! and why does it seem that everyone around me is just as happy as they can be and i can't even find the desire to be happy anymore, not until i get a new job. i know this sounds ridiculous. but let's examine this. most days i wake up at 5:30 and go to bed around 10, that's 16.5 hours i am awake. if i start counting the time i leave for work until the time i get home 10.5 hours are spent related to my job each day so that's 52.5 hours a working week out of 82.5 a working week that i am in my job. that's a huge percentage. life is too short to be miserable that many hours each working week.

moving on. i really really love this weather. it's amazing. it's been so nice lately. our windows are open and sleeping with windows open makes for the best sleep. i run in this great neighborhood with great old houses and little kids that play outside and dogs bark at me and i can smell dinner being cooked and now the leaves crunch beneath each step. it's the most glorious time for me. i don't run with music anymore, i don't even know what i think about, i just clear my head. but i was thinking the other day how i wish i could go trick or treating and i'm a little more envious of children.

i'm so confused, if you have any idea what i should do with my life other than check facebook like it's my job please let me know.

office space

i've seen this movie multiple times, i enjoy this movie, it's hilarious, what makes it even more hilarious is i can totally relate to Peter save the boring office space (ours is at least not as bland)

here are some of my favorite quotes :

Peter Gibbons: You see Bob, it's not that I'm lazy, it's that I just don't care.
Bob Porter: Don't... don't care?
Peter Gibbons: It's a problem of motivation, all right? Now if I work my ass off and Initech ships a few extra units, I don't see another dime, so where's the motivation? And here's another thing, I have eight different bosses right now.
Bob Porter: Eight?
Peter Gibbons: Eight, Bob. So that means when I make a mistake, I have eight different people coming by to tell me about it. That's my only real motivation is not to be hassled, that, and the fear of losing my job. But you know, Bob, that will only make someone work just hard enough not to get fired.


Samir: No, not again. I... why does it say paper jam when there is no paper jam? I swear to God, one of these days, I just kick this piece of shit out the window.
Michael Bolton: You and me both, man. That thing is lucky I'm not armed.
Samir: Piece of shit.
(this is so perfect, except i hate my computer)


Joanna: So, where do you work, Peter?
Peter Gibbons: Initech.
Joanna: In... yeah, what do you do there?
Peter Gibbons: I sit in a cubicle and I update bank software for the 2000 switch.
Joanna: What's that?
Peter Gibbons: Well see, they wrote all this bank software, and, uh, to save space, they used two digits instead of four. So, like, 98 instead of 1998? Uh, so I go through these thousands of lines of code and, uh... it doesn't really matter. I uh, I don't like my job, and, uh, I don't think I'm gonna go anymore.
Joanna: You're just not gonna go?
Peter Gibbons: Yeah.
Joanna: Won't you get fired?
Peter Gibbons: I don't know, but I really don't like it, and, uh, I'm not gonna go.
Joanna: So you're gonna quit?
Peter Gibbons: Nuh-uh. Not really. Uh... I'm just gonna stop going.
Joanna: When did you decide all that?
Peter Gibbons: About an hour ago.
Joanna: An hour ago... so you're gonna get another job?
Peter Gibbons: I don't think I'd like another job.
Joanna: Well, what are you going to do about money and bills and...
Peter Gibbons: You know, I've never really liked paying bills. I don't think I'm gonna do that, either.



Bob Slydell: You see, what we're trying to do is get a feeling for how people spend their time at work so if you would, would you walk us through a typical day, for you?
Peter Gibbons: Yeah.
Bob Slydell: Great.
Peter Gibbons: Well, I generally come in at least fifteen minutes late, ah, I use the side door - that way Lumbergh can't see me, heh - after that I sorta space out for an hour.
Bob Porter: Da-uh? Space out?
Peter Gibbons: Yeah, I just stare at my desk, but it looks like I'm working. I do that for probably another hour after lunch too, I'd say in a given week I probably only do about fifteen minutes of real, actual, work.


Peter Gibbons: So I was sitting in my cubicle today, and I realized, ever since I started working, every single day of my life has been worse than the day before it. So that means that every single day that you see me, that's on the worst day of my life.
Dr. Swanson: What about today? Is today the worst day of your life?
Peter Gibbons: Yeah.
Dr. Swanson: Wow, that's messed up.


Bob Porter: Looks like you've been missing a lot of work lately.
Peter Gibbons: Well, I wouldn't exactly say I've been *missing* it, Bob.

This is SO my life!

Top 1 of the week

No point in making a list, only 1 thing worth noting here:

GEORGIA 18
S. CAROLINA 0

Nothing like watching Spurrier's boys screw it up time after time. And we had our 3rd string QB in! Granted, he's up and coming, quite possibly better than Joe T. and with a little practice with the offense could have an excellent starting season.

I wish I had a picture of Spurrier throwing his classic visor, but I couldn't find one from last night.

GOOOOOO DAWGS!

Well Rounded

i took a personality test to see if i'm a type A or B personality and like i've always known, i'm well rounded.

	Personality Type
Your score = 68

You seem to be in the middle between the Type A and Type B personality. In this case, the middle ground is good. Your attitude to life is more of the "smell the roses" kind and you know how and when to relax. Nonetheless, you realize that picking up a challenge and competing a little bit for your place in the sun can add some spice to your life. The equilibrium is important, so don't let your hostile, aggressive, and competitive alter ego take over too often. Generally, you are easy to be around, and people tend to feel relaxed and comfortable in your presence. Yours is a very healthy attitude towards life.

cool!

Kate's Top 10 - 9.04

10. after all of the weddings i've attended, been a bridesmaid in, i'm finally a maid of honor, it had to happen one day! yay krystie!

9. finding new job prospects

8. cheaper gas

7. bike rides - especially at 5:30 in the morning, just light enough to see until the sun rises in all of it's incredible glory.

6. signing up for a half-marathon - yep, november 18th, i'll be treking it down 13 miles of pavement with my asics btw. me and the pavement.

5. rainy days/thunderstorms

4. baked sweet potatoes

3. www.foundmagazine.com - check it daily for randomness, then i bet you'll slow down a little more often to find your own found objects.

2. text messages

1. long weekends

fish out of water

i don't feel like i fit in here. in georgia i had dozens of friends, i could call anyone i wanted at any time and find something to do, someone to hang out with. here, not so much. i feel like my personality and interests are so far from everyone else's that i don't really click with anyone. i mean i've met great people that i hang out with, but it's not the same. i wonder if it ever will be the same? probably not.

i think i should have gone home this weekend to see people, soon, i'll have to go back to georgia soon.

why am i still here? b/c clearly i haven't been happy the past 9 months.

If i knew then what i know now...

look at it go! classic

i just learned about sheep riding, sheep riding is basically training the little ones for bull riding. now the PBR is getting huge, lots of sponsorship $$ and way more publicity, huge on OLN. anway, i wouldn't want to be a bull rider. but a sheep rider, that would be fun!

so, knowing about sheep riding now, if i knew about sheep riding as a kid, i may have asked the parentals to let me ride sheep. i think it would have been fun.

now i'm too big.

Technologically challenged

now this is a man who understands technology, loves it in fact. sometimes i feel like this at work.

so apparently i am the only one who couldn't figure out how to continue using my old blog and thus created this new one. i sit in front of a computer all day, one would think i would understand it and its inner workings. not to mention that i'm part of the technology generation, these things shouldn't escape my understanding. i feel like i may be losing brain cells due to lack of brain use, looks like technology is the first understanding that is leaving.

oh well, what is done is done and this is my new blog and i'm not even sure it matters as i don't think anyone reads it anyway.

Doubtful

I've said before that song lyrics often say it all.

Here is another one. It's fairly self-explainatory, I just feel like this sometimes. I'm sure we can all relate.

This is also a tribute to the soon to be no more Nickel Creek, yes, you read right.

Doubting Thomas ~ Nickel Creek

what will be left when i've drawn my last breath,
besides the folks i've met and the folks who know me,
will i discover a soul cleansing love,
or just the dirt above and below me,
i'm a doubting thomas,
i took a promise,
but i don't know what's safe,
oh me of little faith,

sometimes i pray for a slap in the face,
then i beg to be spared 'cause i'm a coward,
if there's a master of death i'll bet he's holding his breath,
as i show the blind and tell the deaf about his power,
i'm a doubting thomas,
i can't keep my promises,
'cause i don't know what's safe,
oh me of little faith

can i be used to help others find truth,
when i'm scared i'll find proof that its a lie,
can i be lead down a trail dropping bread crumbs,
that prove i'm not ready to die,

please give me time to decipher the signs,
please forgive me for time that i've wasted,

New Profession

I know what I want to do with my life! I want to be an undercover cop!

Let me give you some background, NC drivers are nuts! (My apologies to my NC friends, but I have only witnessed such behavior here) Put some of these people in a car and they lose their minds. I have also never been one to use the horn, but sometimes it is necessary. I know we are living in a fast paced society, but these people are ridiculous!

2 classic examples:

#1 - I'm sitting at a stop light in Raleigh, I'm on the line, first one, when all of a sudden this car comes out of line, drives up the RIGHT turning lane and proceeds to start cutting me off at the light. So, being a novice horn blower, I blew my horn, b/c who does this?! Well the light turns green and they totally cut me off, so I laid on my horn this time and they waved their hand out the window like I was supposed to let them do that! I'm sorry but unless you have a flashing light, a siren or you are holding you left leg in your right hand that is ILLEGAL!

#2 - Again I'm sitting at a traffic light in Sanford and I am the first person when from behind me comes this car, he turns right, right into the road with the green light and then makes a right turn. MY light turns green and happen to go the same direction as this guy, yeah, he's peeling into the parking lot of a shopping center with an Eckerd, a dry cleaner. and a pizza restaurant. So necessary for him to do that, again ILLEGAL!!

what are these people thinking? Really, you just did that?

Kate's top 10

My Sunday top 10, a new tradition....perhaps.

10. mat kearney - www.matkearney.com - hip-hop meets, pop, meets acoustic folk with spoken verses

9. matt wertz - www.mattwertz.com - acoustic, better than John Mayer

8. thunderstorms

7. my 16 oz nalgene bottle

6. www.visiodei.org - this is the new church that the church i was going to is starting. the site is under construction right now, so check back. Visio Dei = Face of God

5. waking up with aching muscles after a good run

4. postsecret.blogspot.com - I bet you'll find a secret or two you didn't know you had, updated each sunday

3. 48 hours of no obligations, also known as the weekend

2. Current read - Relic, CREEPY, but in a good mystery sort of way

1. phone calls: ones that are unexpected, ones that catch you up, ones that bring announcements

that's all you need to know!

missed opportunity

i missed the triathlon this morning...overslept.....DANG IT!

there goes the "1 triathlon a month" goal.

this picture is kind of hilarious, any takers on this poster for their room? however it does convey how i felt this morning when i FAILED to get up on time.

oh well, you win some you lose some.

changes

so apparently blogger has decided to change itself with a lot of technical stuff i don't understand thus forcing, i mean forcing me to create a whole new blog. stupid. so here's my new blog.

guess it's not that bad...the name comes from a quote i found on someone's facebook profile that i didn't know, but found b/c i was bored at work.

"Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, chocolate in one hand, martini in the other, body thoroughly used up, totally worn out and screaming "WOO HOO what a ride!"

i already forgot my original intent of blogging today. but i think i'm going to try to do a better job of updating more often, less talk. considering the work flow lately, shouldn't be too hard. check back and leave comments, they make me happy! :)