Serendipitous Moments

For the record I spelled serendipitous right the first time.

Thursday, I went to Perimeter College, where in just over 1 week I will finally be starting the process of going back to school!!! I had to go over there to take care of some incompetence b/c I swear the people there don't know their heads from their asses. Case in point, I was filling out the appropriate financial aid forms that they never told me I needed and the "adviser" finds an error. Oh yeah, they dropped me from the two classes that I registered and paid for over a month ago. With no notice! There was no "by the way, you aren't signed up anymore" nothing! THEY NEVER EVEN NOTIFIED ME! How incompetent is that??? And to top if off, NO ONE had ever seen the error message before. Seriously? So I tried to remain calm with the financial aid woman and practically stomped down to the "advising" office to find out WTF!

I'm given the new "adviser" who doesn't know the system at all, and after many anticipated minutes of waiting for him to finally print out the piece of paper that told me nothing, he informs me that the classes I had been signed up for would NOT help me get into PT school. Needless to say, I can call everyone who previously "helped" me INCOMPETENT. Idiots! I can't tell you how many times I had to explain I was taking science classes to go to Physical Therapy School and no one thought to process this apparently.

Here's the serendipitous part, b/c every cloud has a silver lining, the "adviser" sends me down to the Head of the Science Department. She tells me that he is right and that those classes would be worthless. So, she proceeds to sign me up for Pre-calculus (I tried and clearly failed at avoiding this one) and an advanced Biology. All of that said, basically, I really feel like this just shows how much more in control God is than me! I mean, to be randomly dropped from wrong classes and then put on the right track. It was a pain in the butt, but totally worth it. What if I had paid out of state tuition and busted my ass for 2 classes that wouldn't even count or transfer?? Not cool. But God stepped in and gave me my serendipitous moment. I love those!

June 8th, I will be walking in to Biology with a Lab and June 9th walking into Pre-Calculus and starting my journey of being a Doctorate of Physical Therapy. Did you read that right? B/c it said DOCTORATE OF PHYSICAL THERAPY. Who knew I would go from a silly bachelor of science (BS - get it?) degree to something in the medical profession? Crazy! Of course I actually have to be accepted to a program, but I'm know this is what God has called me to do, so here I go! I'm actually doing this!

Go Jump Off a Cliff

Let me say that I did not write this, I just feel this way, and it's comforting to know that I'm not the only one.

Being 20-something... They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job... and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are going back to school and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure.
You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life.

You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but they love someone else.

You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!

In conclusion, with the words of Annie Dillard, "If we listened to our intellect, we'd never have a love affair. We'd never have a friendship. We'd never go into business, because we'd be too cynical. Well, that's nonsense. You've got to jump off cliffs all the time and build your wings on the way down."